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The Late Great Marilyn Monroe
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| A not so fond adu. expressed through music. |
[28 May 2003|05:12pm] |
"Inside my heart is breaking
My make-up may be flaking
But my smile still stays on.
I'll top the bill, I'll own the kill
I have to find the will to carry on... "
ANd with that said...I'm saying goodbye. I'm saying goodbye to the family. I am making a new Live journal. A new email address, a new Screen name. A NEW LIFE
without you.
SO yes, to you I am the anti-christ. And that is how i will remain. Because you will *never* see me again.
BE happy for am i no more to you.
To the real family and friends in my life. Email me if you would like the link to my new LJ.
ladyfirekitten@hotmail.com...i will be deleting this address in a week.
I will keep this LJ for memories and emergencies. IF there is an emergency all others may post a note here. and i will get back to you.
SO...Wave your little hand and whisper
So long dearie
You ain't gonna see me anymore
And when you discover that your life is dreary
Don't you come a knockin' at my door
'Cause I'll be all dolled up
And singin' that song
That says you dog,
I told you so
So wave your little hand and whisper
So long dearie
Dearie, should have said so long
So long ago
Because you've treated me so rotten and rough
I've had enough of feelin' low
So wave your little hand and whisper
So long dearie
Dearie would have said so long
So long ago
For I can hear that choo choo callin' me on
To a fancy new address
Yes, I can hear that choo choo callin' me on
On board that happiness express
I'm gonna learn to dance and drink and smoke a cigarette
I'm go'n as far away from Yonkers as a girl can get
So...
And on those cold winter nights, Daddy
You can snuggle up to your cash register.
It's a little lumpy but it rings!
Don't come a knockin' I'll be all dolled up
And singin' that song
That says you dog,
I told you so
So family, you will find your life a sad old story
You'll be livin' in that lonesome territory
When you see your Dolly shuffle off to glory
Oh I should have said so long...
How could I have been wrong?
Oh, I should have said so long...
So long ago!
Adu.
Caryn
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| I'm done. |
[28 May 2003|05:11pm] |
I follow the night
Can't stand the light
When will I begin
To live again?
One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
What more could your love do for me?
When will love be through with me?
Why live life from dream to dream?
And dread the day when dreaming ends
One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
Why live life from dream to dream?
And dread the day when dreaming ends
One day I'll fly away
Fly, fly
Away
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[26 May 2003|02:02pm] |
"Your brother joey needs you"
When i try to call they say the've never heard of him...
so exactly what is going on?
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Gone Crazy..be Back later
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[24 May 2003|11:15pm] |
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I wanna be loved by you! Just you and nobody else but you...I wanna be loved by you alone!
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[24 May 2003|10:19pm] |
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) firedragonmaid!!!! Check out your LJ look what i did to it!!
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[24 May 2003|09:55pm] |
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*happy dances!!!* LOOK AT MY LJ!!! HOW NEAT IS THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[23 May 2003|04:41pm] |
HOLY SHIT!!!!
I was just looking at weight loss surgery costs. and it said it's over 21,000 Dollars in the US.
*dies* looks like i'll just be fat.
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[23 May 2003|09:53am] |
So, i just got home. THank the Gods.
remind me to NEVER do that again. I stayed the night at Joan's house. Total Duh! thing to do.
Here's an entry from my journal. (THe old fashioned one lol)
May 22, 2003
UGGGGHH!!! I can't stand the way I get when i'm around Brian! I can't stand him. He's so fucking stupid! I need to not put myself into this situation any more, because it happens every time. I love Joan and the Kids too much be around them, when he's around. I get controlling and Fem-naziesk. And i odn't like the way I am. Fucking Fem-nazi no shit. Why do i get like this. I know i'm not always like this, just around Brian. When Brian is around i totally try to control joan's life to protet her. He treats her like shit and she totally just lets him. He feeds his kid beer and shit. GRRR
When i'm around Brian i feel shitty, always angry, always just wanting to beat him until he cries.
Just like a python waiting to strike, to attack and inject my hot poisonous venom into him, right into his fucking neck and just watch him rial around in pain.
I just have pure animalistic blind fury. And to his friends too. I can't believe joan lets those kind of people around her children. Brians friend Gary kept hitting Brandon with a ball until he was crying, and then he KEPT doing it. How can i be expected to sit there and watch it.
Even Joan got pissed. But everyone said "he needs to toughen up" Now i know none of you know Brandon, but this kid isn't a wimp. But NO KID deserves that.
When i'm around the kids i want so much to take them and run off with them, and raise them right.. i know this is wrong and joan is a good mother, but she can't raise them right with brian around.
I can't keep putting myself into this situation. I told joan i didn't want to spend the night if he was going to be there. But she said he'd behave, and i really wanted to spend time with her. We were supposed to go out but neither one of us got our money like expected and brian was acting like a little bitch because he didn't get to have any weed so he "couldn't handle the kids."
He shouldn't be smoking that shit within a billion yards of those children.
(the rest of the journal entry goes on about how shitty i am so i'm not gonna type that out right now lol)
Brandon (3), Destiny (2), and Jasmine(4 months) are my god kids. and oh Gods do i love them.
I was there since before they all were born. I spent most of brandons life at his side. So he knows me. and oh boy does he love me. We're like inseperable (SP). Mmm i love those kids i can't even stand it.
Oh man and destiny is SOOOO beautiful, long blonde hair and gorgeous Blue eyes. i'll have to take some pictures soon.
Jasmine isn't brians, really only by blood are the other 2 brians too. Because he fucked up and lost custody of the kids. So joan can legally take off and there isn't a damn thing he can do about it really. She's done it before he would do something horrible and she would get smart and leave. I don't know why she keeps going back to him. I know it's not the sex, she won't sleep with him. That she does take over me with, "He doesn't deserve it." Sounds like a me thing eh? ;).
Brian's cousin Michael Paul came over yesterday. OMG YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
he's too cute. And sweet too, yeah he actually acknowledged my existance when he walked in the door.
He was so nice, he kept asking me out. ANd i so would have had it not been for Brian talking all kinds of shit. That and he lives in Seattle and me and LDR's don't work at all.
Him, joan and me are all gonna go out monday night. I think monday or tuesday, assuming joan gets her money. and brian is ogoing to take the kids. He doesn't know it yet, but the fucker is going to take some responsibility.
anyway this is long i know. I'll update more later.
Ciao bellas!.
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[22 May 2003|05:55pm] |
Dev, and sarah...
I'm going to spend the night at Joan's house.
If i can handle it, if not i might end up crawling through the window lol!.
*hugs* i'll see you tommorow.
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[22 May 2003|12:02pm] |
"I'm cookie dough,I'm not done baking, I'm not finished becoming whoever the hell it is i'm gonna turn out to be,
I'll make it through this and the next thing, and the next thing and maybe one day i turn around and realize i'm ready, i'm cookies.
And then you know if i want someone to eat me, or enjoy warm cookie me, and that's fine. That'll be then, when i'm done."
Sarah Michelle Gellar as Buffy the vampire slayer
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[22 May 2003|11:26am] |
Athena Female Greek goddess of wisdom
Ben Male Hebrew son
Laticia Female English Modern form of medieval name Letitia. Joyful;happy.
Caryn Female English Modern variant of Karen.
Sarah Female Hebrew princess
Michelle Female Hebrew who is like god
Karen Female Greek pure
Devon Unisex English defender
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[21 May 2003|04:02pm] |
Diamonds Are A Girl's Best Friends lyrics
from: Marilyn Monroe
Related Links: Buy CD from Marilyn Monroe
Buy Poster from Marilyn Monroe
The French were bred to die for love
they delight in fighting duels
but I prefer a man who lives
and gives expensive jewels.
A kiss on the hand may be quite continental
but diamonds are a girl's best friend.
A kiss may be grand but it won't pay the rental
on your humble flat, or help you at the automat.
Men grow cold as girls grow old
and we all lose our charms in the end.
But square-cut or pear-shaped
these rocks don't lose their shape
Diamonds are a girl's best friend
...Tiffany's ... Cartier...
Talk to me, Harry, Winston,tell me all about it!
There may come a time when a lass needs a lawyer
but diamonds are a girl's best friend.
There may come a time when a hard-boiled employer
thinks you're awful nice
but get that ice or else no dice.
He's your guy when stocks are high
but beware when they start to descend,
It's then that those louses go back to their spouses
Diamonds are a girl's best friend.
I've heard of affairs that are strictly platonic
but diamonds are a girl's best friend,
and I think affairs that you must keep liaisonic
are better bets if little pets get big baggettes.
Time rolls on and youth is gone
and you can't straighten up when you bend
but stiff back or stiff knees
you stand straight at Tiffany's
Diamonds... Diamonds...
- I don't mean rhinestones -
but Diamonds, Are A Girl's Best Friends
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[21 May 2003|03:55pm] |
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Does anyone know what plants are OK for cockatiels?
I'm wondering for many reasons because 1. i want to get a cockatiel tree and want to know what that is and how to find one, and because my cockatiel akasha ate all the leaves off my "ribbon" tree (small plant) and i want to make sure she isn't going to get hurt.
Also we just moved and as such the place is CRAWLING with fleas...can they hurt my babies...i already have that mite and flea proctector on their cage..2 in fact, but can fleas hurt them?
THanks..
Caryn, akasha, and athena
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[20 May 2003|02:52pm] |
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Have I told you how much i hate my life.
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[20 May 2003|02:49pm] |
Well, shit.
I'm not on for long i really don't feel good, i guess i'm going to have to go see a doctor about this.
I just spent most of the day with Joan and the kids, so my stress level has skyrocketed.
I'm gonna take a nap before Sarah comes home, which won't be for another oohhhhh 4 hours. SHeesh.
Outtie.
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[19 May 2003|10:01pm] |
I know i'm usually not like this but lately i've been missing out.
All these romance movies are killingme. There's a giant gaping hole inside of my heart. A place yearing for passion and three words.
I Love You.
Why is it so hard? Don't I deserve it? Isn't there SOMEONE out there who loves me so much it hurts. (other than efren *Shudders*)
Someone with so much passion fo rme that are afraid they might explode if they don't see me?
I need some romance, some passion in my life.
It's all i seem to talk about anymore.
Don't i deserve some love?
Apparently both linda and nanna have commented on how "beautiful" I am. So why doesn't anyone else see it?
And for that matter...
why don't I?
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[19 May 2003|09:45pm] |
Devon...
My god i love you.
THank you, so much.
CJ
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[19 May 2003|07:50pm] |
BEN!!!!!!
I realize your going threw something.
Something you obviously think you shouldn't discuss with me or anyone, but i want to let you know that i am here for you.
I want to know. I want to help.
All you have to do is email me and i will be here for you within the hour!
I love you Ben,
Realize this.
I'm totally here for you when you want to talk.
*1000000000 hugs for you*
Care
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